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And most of it is related to cis-girls. This is literally the only place where cisgirls haven't rejected me, and it's probably 'cause it has nothing to do with superficiality or dating.
Cisgirls on Tumblr ignore me or I feel are passive aggressive. My mom abuses me on the daily, every waking hour of it. The cisgirls at the gym gave me rude body language cuz I wasn't gushing over them all the time. Or something. On the subway they mutter "lesbian" under their breath, as if consoling themselves with a prayer. The ones at the women's homeless shelter sabatoged and abused me hardcore, misgendering me all the while. I am only supported if I seem lesbian, but the second I merely acknowledge the presence of a male, which is hard not to do since they comprise 50% of the population, they "out" me as a "guy" and c*ckblock me, trying to make me jealous. The cisgirls at the front desk of the electrolysis spa I no longer go to would abuse me as well, purposely provoking my paranoia while I torturously waited my turn.
So yeah, forgive me if I'm not happy all the time or ecstatic about being lesbian, announcing it to everyone. I really, really am so bitter and filled with pent up incel-rage about cis women.
The new spa I started going to is a fancy place in the fashion district of Manhattan, next to Louis Vitton and such, and there were two girls at the desk who were really happy to see me when I got out of a session. One of them turned out to be the "office manager" and she was smiling wide asking me how did I like the experience. It was just weird, 'cause I really, really didn't want to talk to those b*tches, no matter how nice they were being to me. I knew that, eventually, if I slipped up that I wasn't a corporate non-thinking tool, they would turn on me. So I just gave a brief response and returned to my business. It was awkwardly silent for a bit after that - good - and before I left the place, and as 3 of them at the desk said "bye" it was actually 2 of them 'cause one of them muttered "crazy." It's just a matter of time before they hate me, like everyone else does. Good, I hate them too. I'm only there for the service.
I feel like realizing and posting this now, because I am finally seeking out cisgirls to game with on r/lesbiangamers. Which has also made me more open to finding MtF's on r/transgamers again. Also, I just remembered I HAD to post it here 'cause Reddit is filtering all my posts now.
Cisgirls on Tumblr ignore me or I feel are passive aggressive. My mom abuses me on the daily, every waking hour of it. The cisgirls at the gym gave me rude body language cuz I wasn't gushing over them all the time. Or something. On the subway they mutter "lesbian" under their breath, as if consoling themselves with a prayer. The ones at the women's homeless shelter sabatoged and abused me hardcore, misgendering me all the while. I am only supported if I seem lesbian, but the second I merely acknowledge the presence of a male, which is hard not to do since they comprise 50% of the population, they "out" me as a "guy" and c*ckblock me, trying to make me jealous. The cisgirls at the front desk of the electrolysis spa I no longer go to would abuse me as well, purposely provoking my paranoia while I torturously waited my turn.
So yeah, forgive me if I'm not happy all the time or ecstatic about being lesbian, announcing it to everyone. I really, really am so bitter and filled with pent up incel-rage about cis women.
The new spa I started going to is a fancy place in the fashion district of Manhattan, next to Louis Vitton and such, and there were two girls at the desk who were really happy to see me when I got out of a session. One of them turned out to be the "office manager" and she was smiling wide asking me how did I like the experience. It was just weird, 'cause I really, really didn't want to talk to those b*tches, no matter how nice they were being to me. I knew that, eventually, if I slipped up that I wasn't a corporate non-thinking tool, they would turn on me. So I just gave a brief response and returned to my business. It was awkwardly silent for a bit after that - good - and before I left the place, and as 3 of them at the desk said "bye" it was actually 2 of them 'cause one of them muttered "crazy." It's just a matter of time before they hate me, like everyone else does. Good, I hate them too. I'm only there for the service.
I feel like realizing and posting this now, because I am finally seeking out cisgirls to game with on r/lesbiangamers. Which has also made me more open to finding MtF's on r/transgamers again. Also, I just remembered I HAD to post it here 'cause Reddit is filtering all my posts now.
